I Still Remember Those Days

Dad Oh My Dad, Where are you hanging these days

For, I don't see you around anymore

Look, I am back home to live rest of my life with you

But, I don't hear your roaring voice,

To say, The Lion is Back Again

Nor smell the smoke of your cigars

I still hold the last pack of yours that you left

Hoping  that one day you would come for those

But they say, you just had last puff of your life

I still remember the places of yours; every time I go out for break

Irani Chai hotels, where we used to share cups of tea

Like friends; used to share thoughts & laughs 

And the waving hands at each other on those roads,

Before I can go on to board my college buses

I see, there are no more hands to wave at me now

No more waving hands, not any more

I still remember the things of yours; every time I go out on my bike

The scooter that I used to sit behind you holding tight

And Hearing the safety driving tips that you used to give

Falling in love with the smell of leaking petrol of your scooter

Like the way, the smell of the sand on a rainy day

I see there are no more scooters like yours

Just like you; no more visible, not anymore

I still remember the way of yours; every time I go out for jogging

The way you play the cricket, the way you fly the kites

The way you dress up for jogging on those cold winters

And made us to dress up in those warm wear & run early mornings

Like a gang of monkey caps on a way to rob a bank

When I got fully drunk; you caught me and 

Behaved as if you don’t drink

And I still remember the funny arguments we had that night

Good old 90’s. No more of it & No more of those gangs

All I am left with is me & I am still running alone here, 

Carrying your memories

I still remember the knowledge of yours; every time I watch a TV show

The way we used to answer the questions of ‘Kaun Banega Crorepati’

Betting on the Cricket matches over favorite Cricketers

The way you used to teach me "Mahabharata" & "Ramayana"

Through ethics & morals of those characters

Lessons of instant & long term Karma based on human actions

And with bias, the speaking for your favorite character "Karna"

I see now there is no one to teach but I am on my own

Learning myself through reading & watching shows alone

I still remember the lessons of yours; every time I sit alone

Under those park benches, where you used to teach me about life

Saying, never run behind money at the cost of leaving happiness in greed

Once you run behind, you addict & you run forever

Earn for need not for greed, And don't addict to luxury

In fact Jump off it, that is anything addicting

I see myself holding to follow every word you taught

Jumping off everything that is addicting; places, things, etc. 

To find real happiness

I still remember the way you correct things, 

Every time I mess up something

The way you used to make me work on my handwriting to look good

But yours is one of the best hand writing I ever saw, that I never met

Even now when I try to open your diaries & read, I think to myself

That I am a looser in most of my life than compared to your life

You been always an inspiration & been a best man ever I know, 

From the beginning of my life 

And the only one who enjoys my success,

More than I myself can enjoy

I still remember the last sight of yours, 

Every time I see a dad with his child on streets

I still feel you that you are around somewhere on other side of the road

Watching me crossing the road,

 To give some more tips, next time to cross better

I still feel the hurt that I caused you on those horror nights that I left you

To lead myself upon my goals that I wanted desperately to accomplish

But sooner I realized that, it's not that I left you alone 

But you left me alone for ever & ever

They say, you are dead & no more. Not any more in this world.

I see you in me every time I watch myself. 

You are my genes of inspiration. Legacy of pride. 

I still remember the last words of yours; 

Every time I feel distressed & sick of this world

The world is not a good place for good people, not any more

And you have to feel strong even though you are not, if you want to face it

You have to train yourself every day to survive here

It's always a fight for survival of good over bad & it goes on until you die

Sometimes even you have to fight against your own ones or your own will,

To make good things that you believe to happen

What is good & bad is all again dependent on, 

Your level of knowledge towards morals & ethics

So never fail to keep up on your responsibilities here

It's not about living rightly when everything is going good with you 

But it is living rightly When everything is against you 

And going wrong with you

-Ravi(R)